Rekindle my insanity!

[Zelenia]

Well, hello, there. I'm Zelenia (or Zel, as most tend to use). I've had writer's block since about May 2004. Well, I call it writer's block, at least. In reality...I think a piece of me has gone missing. I've turned to scouring the internet, searching for where it might have gone. Certain events happened back then that made my creativity go south. The one that most affected me was the death of my best friend. She was also a fantastic writer. Far better than I. Anyway, I was so preoccupied with that, that my writing ability seems to have gradually diminished...and it has yet to surface.

I used to write. All I used to do was write. Poetry, stories, fanfiction, etc. I was working on a novel for a while, too. Although, the whole story seems to have fallen apart in my mind...but, the characters still exist. In my mind, they kind of live in my own world, wondering where their world went. o.O

Anyway, I need to find some way to find myself again. I need some way to kick my butt back in gear and get back in touch with my creative side -- the side that sometimes made me think I was crazy. Because, I realize now that, that insanity is part of what had kept me sane for so long.

And I don't think I can do it alone.

So, I hope I can find a virtual home here. I've tried settling in many a forum, but nowhere has really stuck. This seems like a pretty active place with a good bunch of people, judging from what I've seen during my lurking sessions. I hope you all can inspire me to be reinspired. ;D

Can't wait to start participating. ^.^

~ Zel

['erin _xoxo♥]

i can relate to your feelings a lot!
i used to just sit there and things would spill from my mind onto the page, and it was a hassle just to get it all out, but i did it. and what's great- it was good. not by my standereds now, but it was good.

lately i've stuck to RPing, but i'm getting to frustrated with it since people can be really unreliable or just get bored and vanish. like obviously if it's real life stuff that keeps them away then i understand, but just abandoning after you've joined and made that commitment has made me aprehensive to sign on any more sites.

the characters in my head have been lacking lately to. i'm a visual person [part of the reason i plan on writing screen plays] it's hard to shut them up of mindless gabbing.

i want my insanity, that like giddy feeling when i had a really good idea and tore through the house looking for paper and a pen. now it's like 'enh' because i'm just not that into it.

also, my dreams have tons to do with what i'm going to write about, and my dreams are like forgetable lately so it's just harsh. but it's the summer and i'm determined to get the crazy energy back, we coul probably help each other with that?

[Zelenia]

Yes, that's exactly what it's like for me. But, even my RPing has greatly lacked in quality. When I read over my old writing, it doesn't even seem like I wrote it. I had a whole style that I seem to have lost. Hell, even my vocabulary was different. I would read through things and think "I used that word on a daily basis back then?", lol.

Maybe I'm just getting stupider, lol.

I'm a very visual person, too. I've thought about writing screenplays before, but I don't really know where to begin. But, whenever I'm writing a story, I always see it in my head the way I'd see it on the movie screen -- angles, lighting, and everything. And it's so hard to write something out to make it surprising. But, in a movie, you can just see things jump out at you, you know?

I hope we can both help pull each other's insanity back out. ^.^

[Oats]

Hello and welcome to Creative Writing!

I understand exactly how you feel. I've been in the same situation. Don't worry, eventually it'll pass. And you're not stupid. Maybe your mind is just taking a rest. You'll see that soon you won't have enough paper to write on.

Cheers to insanity!